it's over.

it's over
it's repairing
it's back off again

we've been breaking up and apologizing
in a million different ways
over the course of this past month

writing has been difficult
clearly
because i've never had the desire
to say too much too soon

but
the sad truth
is that this is the sad truth

and i cannot hide behind these faux-blogs any longer

i loved matt
very much
but so much more is needed
when it comes to one plus one


finger pointing is an ugly game
and i won't allow what we've shared to devolve into that

we are adults
we will both survive
this has happened a billion times before


i'm really sad


matthew is a wonderful, wonderful man
we simply no longer function as one

this too shall pass

it has to

it has to

and life will come again