fortune cookie wisdom

there are HOLY SHIT moments in life
experiences when time stops
and your awareness is scored to the sound of a fifty-piece orchestra

this happened today
in the most mundane of settings

television
some chinese delivery
and a day off from work

the ending of a series you've watched since day one
(albeit dane cook's "tourgasm")
matched in time to the awareness that your life
can be what you NEED it to be

Final Episode
Final Moments
the comics read a fortune cookie aloud
as i just so happened to open my very own
the music swells
and those finale feelings hit you

this is it
and
then...

"YOUR SECRET DESIRE TO COMPLETELY CHANGE YOUR LIFE WILL MANIFEST"

one minute
nothing
a moment later
the world

all standard jokes of
"you will make a great discovery" In Bed
fall away
and i'm left terrified by the billion ways my life could
change
completely change
end
or also, yes
begin

fortune cookie wisdom
can contain great power
with faith
with discovery
with the belief in something MORE

fortune cookie wisdom
can also bring a HOLY SHIT moment
where time stops
and the fear / excitement become one

this is it
ONE LIFE
no guarantees for the afterwards

in many ways i hold the reigns
to the future
to all possibility
in other ways i don't control a movement


and i know nothing


self-obsession can be disastrous
but
self-awakening is what it's all about