just try to

first major setback
is right

events like losing your expected home
affect a relationship

deeply
profoundly

the fighting has already begun
the worry, the concern

i'd attempted to find this apartment
before matt moved up here

to alleviate the very stresses
of searching through the muck & mire

that i wanted to spare him
so i could just present the gift of a brand new home

worry free
no strings attached

yes
the muck & the mire were to be avoided at all costs

but here we are
smack dab in the middle of it

there's a blog that i occasionally read
written by two friends

called
joshandjosh.typepad.com

it is similar to this
in that it's more or less the story of a life

or in their case, lives
plural

living and loving
in our fair new york city

their site drops names of the celebrities they see on the street
and tells of exact locations of dates that they go on

it comments on the latest ejected american idol
and fills readers in on their painfully dragged out apt. search

it's interesting
sometimes only mildly

but i go there
because they seem like driven, smart

new york city boys
the type that i could actually be friends with

and i read it for the same reasons i read most blogs
they are just so instantly, deliciously addictive

but the other day
after many, many entries

explaining their attempts to acquire the lease
to a brooklyn apartment

and then their distress over losing that opportunity
to someone else

they announce suddenly that
separately

each will be returning
to their hometown of minneapolis

to sort out the next phase of their lives
unable to have fully moved past this loss

wow
i thought

how could this have happened
to these two

i mean, their shocking, immediate card fold
honestly scared me

just a little bit
but still

it scared me
yet made me pity them too

this
i insist

will not be happening
to us

this
i demand

will not be tearing
us apart

this
i promise

will not make us
give in

the comments
on josh and josh's site

were mostly of the
"geez, too bad but good luck guys"

variety
one person, on the other hand

just wrote the word
"pussies"

and i honestly somehow
agreed

with the asshole
with the jerk

character is built
through obstacles

you never grow
if ya just give in

ok
i'll jump off my soapbox now

i promise
because

i genuinely do wish these strangers
the best of luck

like all their other
supporters do

because
the fact remains

that new york
is bigtime

it doesn't suffer many fools
and you CAN make it anywhere, if you can make it here

i'm staying
yessir

i'll be here
for the long haul

born and bred
well, almost anyways

they'll have to drag me out
kicking and screaming

cause this place is as good as it gets
for sure

even, believe it or not
when you're looking for a place to rest your weary head