opening night

our first night
together
we ran into six people from my past
six people from another life
six people who literally knew me when
obviously we need to spend more time in chelsea
cause that's where they all are
insane
tonight we're going to a goodbye celebration
for a co-worker of his
the beginning of her new life
marching right alongside
the start of ours
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't scared
with all my blessings
and all my luck
the single life was not supposed to be over
not now
not yet
it didn't happen this way for ms. bradshaw
and it wasn't supposed to happen this way for me
but
i'm happy
with our mess
and
that happiness
in its own way
makes up for the fear
that this is too much, too soon
that i will regret allowing my heart to open if all this goes to shit
that i'm not or never will be a couple-person
i know
that there are a million chapters in the life ahead
and that
this just happens to be the one i'm on right now
being around other young people
living lives together
helps
it can be done
it is amazing
i didn't dream this all these years for nothing
matt's here
i'm here

goodnight.