preaching, ranting, heavy-handed cross to bear

a stranger's question
"My step-son has a site on "my-space." There he says he is gay. He hasn't come out to us. Should I say something or wait for him to tell us?"

a second stranger's answer
"tell him u love him"

this story i will have to write someday
such power in it
such rare, raw truth

the window
into a world soul
no barriers online
no fences there
you cannot hide your privacy
under the mattress, beneath the bed
this place is everyone's
it's yours, mine and ours
it belongs to us all
and is for all the earth to see

with
the discovery of truth
comes
confusion, sadness, anger, fear
and then

beauty

the way it should be
truth
truth
truth
truth
tell it
seek it out
demand it
live it to the max

a story i will have to tell
the 20 year old boy
the stepmother
the myspace account
and the discovery
that impossible, awful, amazing connection
in this lonely, lonely world

i read about a boy a week or two ago
jason johnson
who was kicked out of his southern christian university
(where he studied musical theatre) ...natch
for being queer
they've decided to let him back in to finish the semester
but after that
there is nothing he can do
except find another place to thrive
but
because of this, the school has lost its chance of going ahead
with their $11 million proposed School of Pharmacy
because of the discrepancy between discrimination & public funds

this world can work for you
if you make it
find your place
and life can & will be good

over the past few days
my boyfriend and i
and yes
it should be noted, i still find it scary to use that word
"boyfriend"
me being male and all
(shiver)
so
over the past few days
my boyfriend and i
have been looking for an apartment
and as part of the process
have spoken with multiple brokers
and seen buildings in numerous parts of town
i have to tell you
i was shocked
having looked for apartments in the past
how amazing each broker was
in handling our "situation"

now
i'm aware
that they're all trying to make a sale
('vultures' i believe is the word that matthew used)
and money comes before god in these people's eyes
literally
but they each managed our search
for a large ONE BEDROOM
with an adjoining office space
with the utmost respect, dignity, compassion
and ease

every day
every single day
change is marching forward

i got a phone call tonight
from my southern, christian, republican, lawyer parents
just to wish me
amongst
a happy earth day
and
a happy 4-20
A Very Happy Gay Silent Day
(some obscure holiday i've maybe heard of once before)
A Very Happy Gay Silent Day
they joked
"I didn't speak in court today"
my father deadpanned
"the judge had to ask if i was there..."

what is
would never have been

what i'd dreamed
could never have come true

what will come
would never have been conceivable

without truth
almighty