peace on earth

home life,

the ahhhh and aghhh
of it

christmas party last night
christmas party tonight
christmas party tomorrow night

it's hard to talk about yourself
over and
over again

seems much easier
to just write about yourself
over and
over again

"how's New York?"
i hear from nearly everyone
and without fail
as soon as the words form in their mouths
the sense of "failure" arrives
within me

i know i'm not where i need to be
professionally
and there is no knowledge of when i might get there
which is normal
for what i've chosen to do
however
i can't help but wonder,
when will the life i'm leading
feel like its enough
to the rest of the world

and more importantly,

when will the life i'm leading
feel like its enough
to me?